Force me to like it.

I have difficulty to understand about the transactional theory of the literary work. Whether I don't understand the theory or the language, I'm not really sure. I can read 597 pages of counseling book but these 11 pages theory of literature is making me insane!

I'm forcing myself.I feel like crying.

I've told u I hate literature and there's no way not to abhor this.

The verb.

I've told me, i hate reading (so much).
I've told me, i have to read even though i hate the verb.
I've told me, it's not dat bad after all... this reading thingy.
I've told me, it's just a 22 page.
I've told me, it's way to many!
I've told me, read it bcos u have to not bcos u want to then.
I've told me, should i force myself?
I've told me, it may sounds insincere
I've told me, well u'll never do it sincerely pon kn..so? force urself!
I've told me, i wanna do something else.
I've told me, i should do it bcos it makes me happier
I've told me, i love colors better than words
I've told me, i love circle and triangles better than squares and lines
I've told me, i love Abstragogy better than Andragogy
I've told me, i could love both
I've told me i should just love both.

Now, I can breathe a sigh of relief.

freakos

Few weird things happened lately.eyh bkn weird.hmm.. few heart-wrenching things happend lately.xdela wrenching sgt.. few things did happen lately,things dat really makes me feel so pissed off!!

situasi 1) lecturer laen ske ati amek students aku nk bwak peg field trip tuk evaluation dihari yg same aku nk evaluate students aku tuk demonstrative speech! aku da assign bdk2 tu lastweek lg. aku tau bdk2 tu xready nk wt demo speech tu yg aku lg marah! seb bek lecturer tu bertubi2 mntak maap,kalu x mayb aku soh lecturer tu yg watkn demo speech bdk2 tu!

situasi 2) alasan2 yg sgt "lame" dr students aku yg xprepare nk wt demo speech - "partner sy ciret beret" "brg2 yg sy nk wt demo tu ttingal kt umah, umah sy kat ampang" (kalu bley nk ckp kt kedah la tu, tp tkot x msok akal) "sy nk tnjok care2 mandikan kuceng, tp kuceng sy ade kt umah kawn sy" WTH??? ade jgk yg jujor sperti, "miss, we'r not ready." so aku pon xready nk bg dieorg mrkah. lalu dihalu kluar

situasi 3) bnde ni jadi kt opismate aku. dis one person condemn kwan aku dgn bkate, "nk jd lecturer jgn pkai bj kurong, nmpak cm cikgu kampong je!" WTH??? ye lecturer ni mmg pkai slack 24/7 n kteorg xpnah condemn pon kalu die nk jadi sgt urban, n kalu xske pkai bj kurong dah la.. xpyah nk kutuk kami yg bngga pkai bj kurong ni! org mcm ni pon ade eyh? plis la...get a life! Doktor India kt tmpt aku pon pkai bj kurong, Dean UiTM pon pkai bj kurong! Gabenor bank negare pon pkai bj kurong!

what's wrong with all these people? ttbe aku rase smue org mnjengkelkan atau dlm bahase biase kte dgr..annoying!

I really2 need a break!

Feel like writing and sleeping

There's one creature in my office who is over-concernd and keep asking me, "xpnat ke lpas keje peg blaja plak?" "xpnat ke berulang alik ari2?" "xpnat ke nk blaja plak lpas keje?" then aku plak tny die,"xpnat ke ari2 tny soklan tu je?" aku blom tnyla tp mngkin akn tny kalu die tros mnanye! haihh kak, mmgla pnat. kte phmkan kalu org tny tu maknenye org tu concern tp u shud listen to that person's intonation. i wish there's a software yg leh msokkn intonation in writing. tade eyh?

Well it is tiring keje n blaja..aku bkn superhuman.tp da dkat 7bln blaja ni aku da xbrape focus rase pnat tu, i wud say "it's ok to be tired" or "it's normal to be tired" i am mentally ready for that.wpon kdg2 aku btol2 rase pnat n kne gak ckp pnat n dude kne dgr kelohan hatiku.kn dude kn?

slaen aku gnap 25thn on last wed, aku juge suda gnap setahon kt ptpl.i started working there on my bday lastyer.sweet kn? guh! it's not impossible kalu aku bckp lagi psal kegenapan aku bkeje kt ptpl ni nextyer! wpon rmai yg xbstuju.aku pon bkn kontrak lg tp da jadi permanent staff. OMG! am i??

aku xske nk mrungut. org kate dun take things seriously. ya rite! cmne blagak cool pon kte mest nk pkir gk kan. so that phrase doesn't work on me. Life is so shortla to be so structured and regret about everything. We shud take time and inhale life as it is. Just like what Dr.Shireena said in Literature class today-take time to smell your tyre! i never ever think of dat bfore!

it's friday and still i have to go bed early.why? bcos tomorow i'm still working!!!

maybe i shud start smelling my tyre tomorow.

later~

PTPL & MSU Annual Dinner

The place is beautiful, the food is sooooooooooooooo unbelievable delicious (yes, we are so unbelievable hungry!), the doorgift is boring (an organizer), the color is tooo bright and bold (glam orange was the theme), faizal tahir sang with style and Camelia was stunning!, the whole dinner was great only one thing that made me sad (meaning i'm no longer feel sad about it). First, the pix from the amature photographer's lenses.

mereke smueeee saiko!

i left early.half an hour early.my dad picked me up,said it was already 12am so I had to go.it was about 5mins later when i received an sms saying: "pjoy ko da blk ke? name ko mnang luckdraw a vacation to hatyai for two!" Sadly the prize was no longer mine because i was not there.i was there but not at the moment they announced the prize. The moral of the story, stay until the event really ends especially the event with a luckydraw and the prize is a vacation to somewhere which kud be better than just hatyai.

i had my lesson. It was just hatyai. No big deal.

I'm done.

happy weekdays everyone!

unstabilitiness

The only thing i like about dis place is the people, selected people only.honestly, me begin to hate this place.reducing numbers of pupils-frustrating! my module didnt sale much as i thought it would be. double frustrating. How could they grow in here? i'm not as eager as i was before. The whole things is frustrating. Notice i use that word more often now-meaning i really mean it! The worst part is I'm gaining weight in here! if i kud take a picture on the first day i was here compares to me now, slightly major changes can be seen. am i just being too emotional or what?

I need a new sight. or should i just be thankful and enjoy every moment while eating more keropok, karipap, donuts and mee goreng so i can gain more weight!


i need a vacation. i need a beach. i need an island. i need choc indulgence. i need to buy that pale pink shoe at little black book, i need big apple iceberg, i need to see my dude more often, i need anything that kud makes me feel other that what i'm feeling right now.

period.

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i hate LDR.but i love him.so i can't hate LDR.i hate LDR.

i'm desperately need a new lappy.

laptop aku sgt lmbab:( mnyukarkan aku nk buat keje2..sgt sedeyh.lg sdeyh sbb tade budget nk beli baru.da 3thn pkai laptop ni, mngikot pngalaman sndiri dan kawan2 aku, msok 3thn je mmg kne tuka baru ni.huhu... sgt2 lmbab smpai jadi mlas nk wat keje sbb da pnat tnggu.cthnye, kalu aku nk bukak Word nk wat asgment,slepas mendoubleklikkan word itu, aku bley peg wat keje2 laen dlu smentare nk tnggu word tu klua, cthnye peg mandi, mop umah, siram pokok dan mnyapa jiran sbelah..barula leh type asgment:( lg trok kalu aku right klick mouse "mabok" ni (mouse ni ske bgerak2 sndiri tanpa mnggu arahan dr aku) nk tnggu right klik tu klua kdg2 memakan mase 3min! hmm... ade sape2 nk bg laptop baru kt aku x?

mngkin ini satu cobaan tuk aku mnjadi lebeyh pnyabar.owh how optimist!

ptpl wat jamuan raye.mkan sgt sdap!! cm biase kami bercamwhoring smentare mnggu datuk tibe:D

ini k.rose.die slalu watkn spageti yg sgt sdap!!

ini k.ju:) die sgt baek hati

ini gmba kad raye ptpl thn depan

bed,ina,hafizah,sofeya

i'm counting the days nk tgk james bond.hehe..
dude cpatla trn cni:(