My engagement I

Alhamdulilah. Syukor sangat2. Semua da selamat. Bila dah habis mcm ni rase kejap je semua bende. Setelah berketuntang sebulan kemas rumah, basoh periok belanga, decorate itu ini finally
I GOT THE RING! WOOT2!!

Berikot ialah uchapan terima kasih secara personal dari aku:
1. IBU ABAH - Terima kasih yang tak terhingga. Ibu Abah orang paling bersusah payah untuk majlis ni, duit, tenaga, effort semua sekali. Bersyukor sgt ada Ibu dan Abah on this special day.

2. ADIK BERADIK - kakak, mamat, bae, dgn ipar2, kbee, ksya, abg amin...terima kasih tolong sempurnakan majlis. kakak tolong decorate hantaran, so-called mini dais, masak, mamat tolong pasang meja, cuci garage, angkat laok2, bae tolong belikan fresh flower pkol 4pagi, kbee tolong buatkan kek ikot cmne yang aku nak, decorate macam2, ksya tolong masak, tolong smue sekali dan abg amin sama2 tolong mamat, tolong cuci periok dan psang meja makan.
3. SEDARA MARA DEKAT - Pakcu, makcu, Dila, Pekjah, Mamat kecik... tq korang, sama2 bsusah payah tolong macam2...korang mmg sedara yang cool!

4. KAWAN2 - ira dan pya terima kasih sgt2 dtg jugak korang... korang mmg the best, kawan2 yang betol2 sahabat. mok ira, thank u kasik tolong aku jadi cntek, mok pya pon sama.. tolong temankan time i bedebar2 dan yg plaing penting sponsor cookies:) kawan2 yg xdpt dtg, thank u doakan yg baik2 tuk aku.

5. MAKCIK2 KAWAN IBU - especially cik Ana yang siapkan hantaran aku, tolong alter itu ini, susah pyah pegi kedai beli ribes, bunga bagai. Makcik2 tolong masak, rewang ramai2, tolong serve laok pastu balik tros lepas makan... heee..

6. SEMUA YANG DATANG - Thank you, meramaikan majlis dan sama2 memeriahkan, tolong makan, tolong sama2 senyum mase aku dpt cincin.
7. PHOTOGRAPHER SI ACAP - ko mmg best! nanti gmba akak kasi cntek2 ye. tq so much!!

8. MUA - Ayu tq tq! saya suka sgt make up awk. and the bulu mata, i loike wpon berat! hehe.

Lastly,
Thank you so much for my dearest Saiful Hisham cum The Dude:) Ingat tak jumpe awk smlm, cmne ntah Ibu nak awk dtg jugak. heee! Terima Kasih sudi amek saya jadi tunangan awk:) org syg awk. Insyallah, kite doa byk2 jodoh kte pnjg dan diberkati Allah. Amin...

Alhamdulilah, I'm so content.

more official pictures after this

I'm writing again.

I cannot stop thinking about it. Something bad, disastrous happened to my thesis. Something that I never imagined before. Something that will be a nightmare to anyone. Because, it will affect my future career, affect my wedding next year, affect me as a person, affect the whole thing. The worst part is, it's not my fault. I had some kind of vision about this. Will share after I got the results of this incident.

I wanna be happy for my engagement, yet this thing is killing me to think about it. Ya Allah, aku mntak pertolongan dr mu, aku dah xde daya nak tanggung ni semua. Tolong, bukak kan hati mereka, terima thesis aku.

Amin.

Mintak tolong doa kawan2. terima kasih.

Buat masa ni...

..aku xlarat nak buat pape, nak pikir pape. Aku boleh doa dan mngharap. I got good news in the morning but bad ones later in the evening. Tuhan, tolong..aku penat.

Macam-macam

Baju aku yg ptotnye amek last friday kne amek this thurs. agak lewat 1 minggu ye atas insidin bodoh tukang jahit. Aku da ade rase nak beli siap baju ni tapi bile tgk kain2 beaded sana sini cam teruja nak anta tailor tapi hasilnya? Malas nak ckp. Sedih akak. Tapi it's not that bad. Tadi Dr. Zee supervisor thesis call soh jumpa sok. Nervous! sehari suntuk pkir kenape. Ya Allah, mintak yang elok2 je. Hopefully da bley proceed dgn hard cover. AMIN2!! Ok ni random je, tadi peg KLCC, event Ibu ni tapi kene paksa pergi sebab tak buat pape pon kt umah. Isk. Smidex exhibition, untuk SME (small medium entrpship). Seb baek ade dila si kazen. Gila ngantok dgr talk usahawan. Dem.SME what?

Monday

Five days to go. Emotionally I'm not ok. Lately banyak rase sedih, keciwa. Ya Allah, tenangkan la hati aku, permudahkan semua urusan, pada yang dengki dan taknak tolong, byk bising je dan berpikiran sangat2 negative, kau ampunkan la dosanya yang da mengecikkan hati aku Ya Allah.

Aku bersyukur masih ada Ibu dan Abah. Bersyukur yang teramat sangat.


Dude, orang wndu awk sgt2.

Madly missing you.

kau bikinku gigit bibir sendiri
lamakah lagi kita sepi?
kau bikinku renung sinar mentari
lamakah lagi kita begini?

alangkan bulan terang
hilang nyawa tanpa bintang
apalagi aku

alangkan bunga kembang
pudar warna tanpa siang
bayangkan aku

berkaliku mintakan dari dulu
usah kau tunggu ucap itu
berkaliku bisikkan pada kamu
usah kau buntu aku milikmu

alangkan bulan terang
hilang nyawa tanpa bintang
apalagi aku

alangkan bunga kembang
pudar warna tanpa siang
bayangkan aku

perlukah aku menyebut setiapnya
yang indahku tidak akan ada makna
bila kau sembunyi dan bermain lari-lari
separuh aku sudah pun mati

tak mampukah kau percaya
haruskah ku hebahkannya pada dengki dunia?
tidak bisakah kita sekadar pejam mata
biar jiwa bersuara

biar
biar
biar jiwa
bersuara

Fynn Jamal - Biar Jiwa

The feeling of the day. (or it could be month)

To tell the truth, I miss to teach. Miss to be greeted by the students, miss to laugh with them in the classroom, miss to scold them, miss to shout at them, miss to preach them, miss to listen to them, miss to prepare out-of-syllabus lesson for them, miss to crack stupid clever joke with them, miss to make them really listen to me, miss to watch how they get SO DAMN nervous when it comes to presentation, miss to observe what kind of lame excuses they will make if they didn't prepare for that presentation, miss to make them see how stupid they are for making such lame excuses, miss to make them feel how English is so interesting to learn, miss to 'open' their eyes and make them see what is really there outside, miss to watch how do they really want to learn English, miss to give my very best as an educator. Some of the students are really an eye-opener for me. They gave me an inspiration to be a better person and a better teacher.

I miss my former job. Hate to admit this but, I miss to teach PTPL students.


I wanna wake up early morning, squatting and wondering what to wear for the day. I want that feeling back!

Baby-sitting the monsters!

sape imam sape ma'mum pon tatau..

bkejaran nk sikat rmbot ajiq

Aqilah, " Abg ajiq, xpe ke kte duk cni? kte tak main kompang pon"
Ajiq, "xpe xmen pon..janji kte dpt duk dpan stage, smue org tgk kte"

Diva Junior

This one is for Abah

Abah turned 63, Alhamdulilah so far abah sehat. Aku dengan Ibu selalu suruh dia cukor jambang itu, sebab kalu die cukor mest nampak muda! hehe.. Abah, adik doakan abah panjang umur, murah rezeki, sehat dan cpat dpt menantu baru. Huk! I'm so proud to have a father like you=)

Happy 63rd Bithday Abah!
Love you!

*abaikan Imran, geram2!!

How to say?

It has been said. I have to wait for another 5-6 months before they'll give me the offer letter. NICE!

Ok, now what?

I need a job for this 5-6 months or I'll die.

A job!

Any kind of job that I can get some moolah from and spend it without hesitation.

A job! Geddit?

for the meantime, let's watch annoying orange!

Thanks orange for being interestingly annoying!

What?

Hari2 tgk mailbox..yg betul punya eyh, bukan e-mail. Sampai satu hari surat itu tiba, ada logo UiTM. Yes! Tapi apakah isinye? It was about the interview! Aku scan je masa dpt surat, nampak perkataan, "temuduga" "UiTM Pulau Pinang" sukacita" dan "walaubagaimanapun" Nervous2! Ok alhamdulilah interview the other day lulos:) tapi dia nak transkrip tamat belajar master dengan scroll baru UiTM bagi offer letter. The thing is, mcmana nak dapat scroll dalam masa terdekat neh? bukankah kena tunggu konvo? which means end of this year? NEHI! takkan aku tak keje dalam 7-8 bulan lagi? mcamna nak kumpol duit mau kawen? keta takkan abah bayar lagi? pencuci muke sape nak beli? sabun mandi? shampoo? handbag baru? heels? uishh byk tu kena cover. Harus call UiTM!

Please, I need the job badly and immediately!

I want June.

Thirteen days left.


Selain jerawat mekar tumboh kat muka, aku tak buat pape pon for myself.


Thirteen days left.

*sigh*

Is it too much that I'm asking for?

.......

...

..

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Is it?

Happy Birthday Rafique!!

He turned six!!

Happy Birthday Rafique a.k.a Rafikiu

Acu loves you!

Nana's Bachelorette Party!

More pictures!

Congratulations my dear Nana!!!

Hari Ibu Saya

irresistible; both Imran and the cake!!

from ajiq n family

The best cake so far!!

Ibu malu tanak gambarnya disiarkan merata2 sebab dia pakai kaftan je masa tu.

Ibu,
Happy Mother's Day
You are the greatest gift from Allah (wpon Ibu kadang2 super garang)
LOVE YOU!!!

=)

Something that will be missed.

Jangan tanya apa kami sedang buat.

Nana mamarangga, congratulations!
Love you!
Mmmuahhhhh!!

Another...

...30 days to go

*smiling*

TAGGY WAGGY!

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
as far as i'm concerned, no=)

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
lastweek. reason? of many things. triggered by my dear PMS

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Hell yeah! Do you?

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAL?
Nasi+laok macam2+tomyam+nyum2.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Soon baby soon!

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Hell yeah! and let me know what are my bad habits

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Totally! I can be very mean sometimes. Try me!

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yes. Want some?

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?.
I would love to! But I'm a paranoid.

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
cookie crisp! pronounce CRISP with the correct pronunciation. It's hard!

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope.

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Vanilla+chocolate

13. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their clothes.

14. RED OR PINK?
Pink. Give the red to Ibu

15. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Paranoid.Uncertainty

16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
My dude. Totally. LDR is killing me but I'm still alive. hehehehe

17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
no.

18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
white+blue. shoesless

19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
the fan. Notice lately I don't listen to any renditions while blogging/facebooking. Guess I'm old.

20. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
White. Not many people like to use me so I'll stay long and pretty. huhu

21. FAVORITE SMELLS?
thumbdrive. You should try!

22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My sister. tolong bayar ASTRO

23. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH
Football! Track

24. HAIR COLOR?
Black not so black

25. EYE COLOR?
Super deep black.

26. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Don't need one

27. FAVORITE FOOD
Ktiaw Pakli, Ibu's cooking

28. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
scary movies

29. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Sherlock hOLMES. Brilliant

30. WHAT COLOR OF SHIRT DO YOU LIKE TO WEAR?
White+pink

31. SUMMER OR WINTER?
winter

32. HUGS OR KISSES?
a combination of both?

33. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND TO?
my own emotion

34. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
a call/message from stranger.

35. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
I dislike reading.

36. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
no mouse pad. But i think we got mouse in the kitchen

37. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
AIM which was boring!

38. FAVOURITE SOUND(S)?
my little nephew's giggle!

39. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
beatles

40. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Makkah=)

41. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I can hear a little tiny sound of something but I can be real deaf listening to people, special eh?

42 WHERE WERE U BORN?
PJ y'all! hahahah! (PJ as in Petaling Jaya not Paya Jaras, y'all!)

43. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
IRA, PYA, NANA

44. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
UiTM-specifically in every classes we attended.

45. PEOPLE I WOULD LIKE TO TAG:
YOU!

Gila bosan.

Baru 24jam lepas anta assignment aku da rase mati kebosanan T_T konon dah habis siap semua keja boleh relax sepuas2nya tapi aku macam xboleh nak relax, macam dah biasa hidup sibuk. Wuhahahahk! Gile gelabah. Dude pun macam dah malas nak dengar aku membebel bosan, sebab dia tau ni semua temporary je.. kan dude kan? Baik, aku nak list benda2 yang aku boleh buat sementara nak dapat keje:

1. Fbooking 24hrs - cuba tahan tanak update status setaip 5minit
2. Blogging - nak tulis hari2? macam tada life sgt
3. Tengok TV - kalu ada cite best / kalau tak berebut dgn ibu abah
4. Kemas bilik - baru kemas
5. De-clutter bilik - bilik tak besar sgt nak tuka2 tapi boleh dipikirkan
6. Kemas wardrobe - WAJIB!! tapi tade mood nak buat lagi
7. Buat TQ tag tuk bln 6 nanti - perlu ke?
8. Art-attacking - tade duit nak beli acrylic color, brush, pva glue
9. Tgk CD - semua da tgk
10.
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Tolong! I'm dying of boredom! Sangat2.. any suggestions?